depression

I really don't know what to do with my life, it feels so tedious to constantly be depressed.

I'm not suicidal, just tired, I stopped using instagram and snapchat, since according to various studies those social media types just worsen the feeling for depressed individuals. I've attended various forms of therapy for the past six or seven years, and taking daily medication in the form of ssri/snri.

It just feels like this is something that will always be there for me, a constant lower energy level than other people, how am I to compete with others like this?

I have no good qualities, at least not enough, to compensate for the pile of shit that I am.